I care to much:

I know is a bit of a weird theme to talk about but...I have many friends few true once and when I do find one of those true ones. I only want them to have the best in life, and I worry too much about them you could say I become there little guardian angel or devil anything they need in the moment, but always driving them to the good side. And when I lose one of them I freak out and I understand that they don't answer me, but if I try to look for them and no one  knows anything about them I get a bit worried and I act immediately.

Well just giving you an example, I'll tell you what happened to me today…

 I was in my house all day, I went out like 1 time, and it was to go pick up my cousin. Then when I got home I try to talk with a friend. She is one of the few true ones. I try, and try, but she didn’t answer, so I go to my other friend, and ask if she has talk to her today (she is also one of the few ones), and she told me that she try also talking to her, but she didn’t answer to her either. I try with another person he told me that she didn’t answer him either, so I was getting scared by every time everyone told that she didn’t talk to them. I thought maybe she just wants to have her time alone, but I understand if she told someone. Well what happen is that I live literally like 5 minutes away her and that’s walking, so I was making a plan to go see her tomorrow. In that same moment I was thinking going to see her, my aunt comes to my door, and asks me “Do you want to go out to get Yogurt?” I said “Yeah why not”. I went to the car and I saw my cousins. I went all the way in my phone trying to see if anyone had talk to my friend. NO ONE, this was getting scary (for me at least). I told my cousins and one of them had the phone of one of my friend, friends. She call her friend and nothing the person didn’t knew anything about her. Then the other cousin of mine started laughing at me, because I was exaggerating the situation, and yes maybe I was but is better exaggerating the situation to not worry at all. My aunt notice that I was worrying a bit too much, so she said “Fine, we can go to her house, but fast” and she stop at my friend house. I ask her dad if she was in there, he said “Yes, I’ll call her hold on”. I felt so relieved when he told me that, because that meant she was fine. She came out of her house and explain that her phone didn’t work well the battery of her phone, and that she was getting a new battery on Tuesday. I told her that I was worried about her, and so other people because she didn’t answer the phone. After that I got home and told the other that she was okay. Then I realize that I was worrying to much she was save and sound in her house, but I know that even if I realize that, that I wasn’t going to stop worrying about my friends and that’s what make me, me I worry to much and they know it so…if they are okay with it why should I, and even if they aren’t okay with it I’m okay with because it’s what make me, me.

 

P.S. – Thanks for taking your time and reading hope you have a wonderful day or a wonderful night, and never forget be yourself. ;)  Hope To See You Again.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I Really Don't Understand.

I really don't understand. Why? Is there a reason for humans to have feeling? Why can't we be more rational, more scientific? I hate feeling like I'm worth less. I want to become more like a rational person, but how if all I do, I do it base in how I feel. 

Some people can control there emotions, and others can't, we can control when we are mad. When feel the need to punsh someone but we don't because we can control that feeling of anger, but...Can you control either when your happy or sad, no. We can't control how we feel; but we can control what comes with the feeling. 

Real question I have, can we control when we love someone, because love, for me is the fusion of all feeling mix together. Even the most rational person can't control love, with love comes jealousy that is a mix of anger and sadness. With love comes the butterflies in the stomach, that's been nerves, been nerves comes from happiness and excitement. Love is good and all, but when that love turns in to sorrow and every little thing that comes from sadness and anger. For me is the worst feeling ever because is not been sad or depression is worst than that,...Is been in a situation that you can't get out of. I trust the feeling will get out. 

Ps.: But it looks like my friend disagree with me. She says feelings are what makes us humans. It's what makes us feel alive. That's why we hurt each other's feelings are a part of life that we are supposed to live with....but she all so liked this sentence “We can't control how we feel. But we can control what comes with the feeling. 

Love?

Hey...Is me. I was thinking about feelings, and how we all feel the same but not the same at the same time. Is confusing I know, but that is love, and that's what I want to talk about today.



Have you ever wonder what love is. What love is for you? What love is for him or her? What is love for a scientist? What was love? What would it become of it? Sometimes I sit and think to my self, is love a ways of showing we care, or is a feeling that no one can or would understand. The definition of love is a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes that ranges from interpersonal affection. For me that is a way of defining the word, but the word it self can't be define. Love can't be define just because all of us feel a different way of love. You may say love is the same for everyone but have you ever stop and think if every body is different would they feel different. Yes, we are all humans, with different thought, and if the feelings are in our head then why can't they be different. I really don't care if the feelings I have are different, to the feelings he has. I just hope I can understand mine and he can understand his feelings.

I discover that we feel love for everything that has a memory, that we put our heart to it. That moment when you meet your best friend(BF), for the first time in a long time, what comes to mind... all the memories you had together, the fact that you love her/him. I have so many friends and I love them all, some I love them more then others, but not because they are worth less, just because they have better memories with someone else, and I have best friends (BF's) and they are the people that understand me, that feel me, and I love them all, and I love the memories that I have with them, I wouldn't change them for anything in the world. And like everybody in the world, that had or has, a special person that they like. I have a special person that I like, he is sweet and nice but sometimes I just don't feel love for him, I feel different I don't know how to explain it, but I don't want him to be mine, I just want him to be happy, to tell me he is happy, to see his smile, and know, and yes sometimes I really want to hug him tight, and never let go. But we all have our entire life to look for that especial one, and sometimes if you stop looking, you can actually see more clearly.

And never be afraid to end up alone, because you should know that as long as you have friends, and Family(and when I say family, I don't mean blood relatives) you are not going to be alone.


Song for the theme: Adele-Someone Like you...
 I heard that your settled down. That you found a girls and your married now. I heard that your dreams came true......

My Bad:

Hey, my bad. I haven't post any thing in a few days, is that I have been busy with school, plus I'm going on a trip to Orlando, in March 10 until march 15, to see university's. In two years I'll be out of high school. That scares me a bit, but you can't stop time so, I think is better if you let time go and get prepared for whatever comes. When I come back I'll be talking a bit about my trip and how well did it go. Btw, I want to study graphic design, for all of you that don't know.

Well...see you Guys/Girls in a few days. Bye