Someone...Anyone?

Sometimes I ask my self, do I have anyone that is truly a friend? Is it worth lying for that person? Would you die for them? Would they die for you? Is our friendship right? I'm scared of been friends, but I'm more scared of turning in to enemy's, not because I would lose you, more because of all the things I have told you. I'm scared of despairing. I think that if I have someone to talk to I'll be fine. But is it true, that your friend, is truly your friend? Do you know the person? Does the person knows you? I don't mean knowing the person for a long time. I mean knowing the person right, the person he is. Does he lie? Is he honest? Does he trust you? Do you trust him? Do you know he would back you up, when you been treated badly? I had a little situation where I sit and I start thinking. They say they wouldn't change us, but didn't they said that to their old friends? Are they truly meaning it? 

"We will be together" yeah I've heard that before, "Friends forever" that too. Oh and the old but actually always used, "You can trust me, I'm your friend" I know the truth, we change, they change, we all do, but I wish...I just had someone that I know will keep a secret, that I'm not scared of, that's scared of losing me as a friend, that thinks of me like someone incredible, that understands, someone I can laugh with.

I say I do have one already, but do I really. Can I trust you? "yeah" lies! All of it. Sometimes I think that been alone is easier that actually having friends. I'm not who to judged, but I just want to feel, I can be safe, that someone cares, that if I text you, you will answer, if I talk, you'll listen, if I fall you be there by my side, to pick mew up, o just there, but always there no matter what. We all deserve that person don't we. I think I already have on, but I'm scared that, that's just me trying to make my self feeling that someone cares. I don't mean family, I mean someone that is not my blood, but I consider them on of my own. Someone...anyone that would care fro me as much as I do for them.

 

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